Something is ‘off’ in my world, I really don’t know what or why but I guess it really doesn’t matter. I haven’t been quite myself on the track, or roads, or anytime I lace up my sneakers lately. I’m in a weird place and I am absolutely positively sure that the universe is setting itself up to line up for me but not any time soon.
The theme of this week is investing in yourself. A good bunch of my training partners have left me and disappeared off to train in flagstaff. They have decided to invest in their hopes to run fast by spending what money they have on training at one of the best places to improve on the planet. I wanted to go to, I really did, but when I looked at the big picture I realized that I would have to choose between either a month in flagstaff or a few of my meets or do both and lose my job and source of income. While I’m not beyond the idea of giving up everything for a shot as grandeur I felt that it was in my best interest to keep a vital part of my support network intact and focus on my upcoming opportunities, all of them.
This past week has been full of just random, unexpected cool shit and it’s got me excited for the things to come. Nothing particularly special was planned for this week, just another seven days on the grind, but its just one of those times when life puzzle pieces suddenly click together and the big picture starts to shape up.
I have this theory, its goes something like, I can be who I want to be, if I can see the potential person I can become, then I can strive to one day be him. I often get fooled into thinking that I am already there, that I am already that person and thus things will come naturally to me. Then I am reminded that I have a long way to go and while the horizon is bright it is still in the distance.
There are days when the bus comes early and I miss it, or it comes late, and there are even days when it doesn’t show up at all without explanation. There are days when work is stressful and I show up to practice exhausted or I get forced into working overtime and I miss practice entirely. There are just some days that the world gets in the way and makes the pursuit of happiness much more difficult than it ought to be, but that’s life and if I wasn’t constantly challenged, humbled and given obstacles to overcome I would be left without gratitude and appreciation necessary to make achieving anything worthwhile.